ranting

Okei, Dr. See says that we can't tell much from this MRI, as it still shows shadows of the leftover effects from Dad's radiotherapy. So he's now on the 1st of his next 3 cycles of chemotherapy. Then they'll take another MRI after that, which will be more revealing. Whether or not Dad's speech improves is dependent on whether the tumour was simply pressing on his brain or it actually ate away at the brain...no news abt which one it is at this moment too.

It irks me that the doctors and nurses seem to feel it's their duty to keep reminding us that this is a very aggressive tumour, and the usual prognosis is 1.5-2 years. Yes I know, you've made your point, but why the need to tell us 10 times? So what even if we don't realise it? So what if it doesn't sink in? Is it really yr job to ensure that we are hit wham-bam with the full realisation of the gravity of the situation? Trust me, none of us are living in denial, we all know the odds, but I don't see the point of repeating it in the "Do you realise how serious this is?" tone. How does that help anyone? Are we like supposed to start preparing for it or what? It's ridiculous. What's more dangerous....to keep trampling all over someone else's hope so it dies before its time or letting the person live in it until it has no choice but to die? Please, God knows when to let the bomb drop. I choose to let hope live till it dies a natural death, anytime. And don't worry, I may be a butterfly at times but I am not blind to reality, thanks very much. The facts are not the truth, that's all.

Okei, I've ranted enough. Let's move on.